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Wednesday, February 28, 2007

have you ever been in a situation whereby you put in so much effort, passion, love whatever, just t find out that at the end'a the day, nothing works?
for now, i dont really need someone t be here for me.
i need someone t help me.
god? are you there?
oh this sucks big time, just when everything was failing, this had'a fail me too.

it's just so hard t let go, you wont know.

8:23 AM

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

feelin so fucking lousy now. again, because of a game im frustrated with myself.
it seems as though i succumb t pressure easily and i tend t let the nervousness eat me up lil' by lil. one excellent eg. 's missing 2 underbaskets. that shot was 100% suppost go in but it went right over the rim. i know everyone was lik what the fcuk?! so was i.
team's performance wasnt up t standard, only won by 2 pts and it was a bare win. besides the game was very tense throughout and the score showed lil' diff. we targetted 20-30pts? missed by a bunch. guess we underestimated 'em huh? should hav done alot better, seriously. with more rebounds, more fighting spirit, tougher def, less turnovers, quicker pace, more screen and rolls.. okay some're referrin t myself.
i havnt done my part as a pt guard so far. havnt been dishin out, unable t get into the paint, or rather, not even trying, unable t take my shots. instead i caused turnovers. i really wonder what'm i doin on court. guess it's only right that js lose trust in me.
i'v reflected a lil', but i 'ont know if i can play what's on my mind. i'll see how the next game goes.
plus, i really need t play well in the next game t boost confidence level after seeing all the shit happenin t me. so fucked up seeing myself play.
semi's on monday, against sac at 1pm.
skippin trng tmr cus of dental. good t take a 1 day break off ballin' and reflect more, tsk
hopefully the team presses on together, we'll make it.
i need self confidence. period.

i wna thanks weehoe, weiyang, kc, cy for all the advices, and jo for pointing some of my flaws
thank sm for the long talk, & my pl for being there, again :)

4:26 AM

Sunday, February 25, 2007

some annoying wanted t see how retarded i looked without fringe.
here,

VERY.

i sacrificed for basketball! so i could somehow see better, hahah. whats more js wanted t me cut. uhh.. but i ended up playing worse, damn.
i gotta play well on tues against chungchengggggggggg. yes? yeahhh
go team.

i found some food pics in my phone. so i'll just post em' up.

this's botin's worst nightmare, fattening! hah

came along with the 888bucks dinner my family had.

? everything at home comes in a bulk (:

jap squid i suppose.

cheese snacks are love.

one retarded world,

my tutor's rabbit bites her very often and you know what she did t stop it from doing so again?

she picked it up, scolded it a retarded bastard and here's the funny part,

she bit it's ear -.-

good thing's, now it's super obedient! wow

dang. my grandmother just gave 16bucks t the sweeper who sweeps our block.

now, who wants the job?! hahaha

shit i wna sweeeeppppppp

4:51 AM

Thursday, February 22, 2007

everything's like fcuked. well, almost everything.
no luck no luck no luck.
i havnt been playin well for all the recent matches, and it sucks totally.
it's like really dumb t not be able t force youself t defend properly and passing the ball straight into opponent's hands when you alr know that would definately be a turnover.
i cant cant control the nervousness inside, it just takes over completely and i find myself missing passes, dribbling cautiously whatever.
i gotta overcome this shit, shit!
i dont quite know what happened t some of our teammates but whatever it was, blowin your top off at the other doesnt make the situation any better. not as if everyone's the same standard as you, you see. so please take that into consideration.
t make matters worse, my mom just had'a take a week's leave and stick her nose into my every lil' business. so when i was lik nappin, she just came in and fired at me. guess that's whatcha call menopause huh.
and as for us, i dont know what's gna happen but things aint lookin good afterall. the worst thing's, there's lil i can do t make you chg your mind. i always hoped you'd be the one there for me..
ohh i need my pl! :(

3:07 AM

Sunday, February 18, 2007

and we're in t the second day of the lunar new year.
all stars game mvp was kobe bryant. west won by a bunch.
slam dunk champ was gerald green.
three pt'er winner with 24pts went t jason k- something.
skills challenge champ was the defending champ, d'wade.
shaq dancing with/for lebron was the hilight of the whole show
be sure t check it out, ha.

and I'd give up forever to touch you
cause I know that you feel me somehow
you're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
and I don't want to go home right now
all I can taste is this moment, and all I can breathe is your life
cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight.
and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything feels like the movies
yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.
and I don't want the world to see me
cause I don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made t be broken,
i just want you t know who i am-

8:11 PM

Friday, February 16, 2007

i twisted my left ankle twice yday while playing match. though it aint as swollen as the other time, it hurts still.
great, so now my both ankles are screwed.
just when 2nd round of competitions was starting this had'a come,
wtf.
went parkway yday after training.
so i didnt get my topman jeans cus there was no size and i gotta wait for a month -.-
botin, maybe we should do more nightwalks t help you overcome your fear of white orbits
HA

i hope you'd think well before making a decision..
after all i've done, i was tryin t be someone,
someone who really cared.

5:31 PM

Thursday, February 15, 2007

valentine's was great!
okay im easily satisfied i guess.
bet everyone won't know what im talkin about except jo.
ha
whats more, it was great seeing love being spread among people!
hopefully next fri after the new year'll be great for the sports playas,
badminton takin on victoria,
bball guys against ngee ann,
table tennis meets plmgs.
all tough fights but,
they'll make it :)

and andrea, please cheerup, loves-

tomorrow, my fate'll be decided.
hopefully all goes well.

6:38 AM

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

what can i say?
tests're floodin my life.
good gawd, i cant wait t fail more of em'
zz i havnt studied d whole'a today despite havin common test tmr.
dang guess i'll just go t bed like now and leave everythin for tmr.
hoooooooohooooooo

we gon' be so fuckin flyyy baby
ha :D

7:06 AM

Friday, February 02, 2007

my days are getting rather barmy these days, literally.
been laughing my ass out for every single shit that's happened. tsk
no wonder grace and i can't sit tgt. but we still do work okay
d face warp thing just shaped some nice abs outta me.
hahaha gawd i still find it funny. lol and after andy saw it he's laughter was how gay please.
i'll post some pics on d next time, if d people dont mind.
laughing is healthyyyyyyy muahaha random.
dinner at kfc after pok's match at kallang was greattt lik everyone got tgt t bitch bout stuffs, how heartwarming. ha!
and people, i wna blog about people.
ya know, hypocrites are just d worst people around and if you're one, be guilty when you're reading this aight, be veryy guilty.
ohhh no doubt this world's changin fast. soon enough we won't know what'll become of each other
crap huh.
d last game with bedok green was so screwed i didnt know what d hell was i doin'.
won 75-10+ ?
i caused quite a no. of turnovers, happens every game. guess i gotta cut down on that zz bad judgement, bad passes. damn.
okay gotta work on our def, rebounds, anticipation cus coach said our reaction was too slow
trng later. thats all for now.

4:35 PM