Tuesday, February 27, 2007
feelin so fucking lousy now. again, because of a game im frustrated with myself.it seems as though i succumb t pressure easily and i tend t let the nervousness eat me up lil' by lil. one excellent eg. 's missing 2 underbaskets. that shot was 100% suppost go in but it went right over the rim. i know everyone was lik what the fcuk?! so was i.team's performance wasnt up t standard, only won by 2 pts and it was a bare win. besides the game was very tense throughout and the score showed lil' diff. we targetted 20-30pts? missed by a bunch. guess we underestimated 'em huh? should hav done alot better, seriously. with more rebounds, more fighting spirit, tougher def, less turnovers, quicker pace, more screen and rolls.. okay some're referrin t myself.i havnt done my part as a pt guard so far. havnt been dishin out, unable t get into the paint, or rather, not even trying, unable t take my shots. instead i caused turnovers. i really wonder what'm i doin on court. guess it's only right that js lose trust in me.i'v reflected a lil', but i 'ont know if i can play what's on my mind. i'll see how the next game goes.plus, i really need t play well in the next game t boost confidence level after seeing all the shit happenin t me. so fucked up seeing myself play. semi's on monday, against sac at 1pm.skippin trng tmr cus of dental. good t take a 1 day break off ballin' and reflect more, tskhopefully the team presses on together, we'll make it. i need self confidence. period.i wna thanks weehoe, weiyang, kc, cy for all the advices, and jo for pointing some of my flawsthank sm for the long talk, & my pl for being there, again :)
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