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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

lost today's game.
and i dont wna talk about it again.
mixed emotions, so much so that i feel nothing. numb? more of disappointed, frustrated and brain full of question marks.
i feel that there's no trust, no nothing, not abit. even some of the players feel the same way as i do.
i guess training your ass off doesnt really help. whatever. im short, plus useless?
no idea. lack of confidence? im tryin t change. well maybe it just isnt enough for people t see it clearly.
the world just doesnt appreciate anything, everything.
and refs, you guys just suck, so very bad.
i really pray that you still have your eyeballs with you.
i hate all of this, i really do.
it's not like i didnt try, i did. and everythin' i do is just wrong?
i seriously feel like givin up at this point.
everything's just a masquerade.

5:25 AM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

shopping spree on sat, got another jeans, shorts plus jacket.
adel, steph jo got their stuffs too.
but I'm not done yetttt. and so 's steph.
ha we'll seeeeee if i ever getta complete my shopping list. kinda impossible.
money please rain down from the skies
by the way, nationals starting on tues. and that's real quick.

I never knew, I never knew that everything was falling through
that everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
to turn and run when all I needed was the truth
but that's how it's got to be
it's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
the smoke and who's still standing when it clears
let's rearrange,
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
say that we agree and then never change
soften a bit until we all just get along
but that's disregard
and suddenly, I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

with eight seconds left in overtime,
she's on your mind,
she's on your mind.
i.. give up.

7:35 AM

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

i screwed my ankle again. fuck!
damn this's one busy week. update soon.

7:05 AM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

seeing what's been happenin t people around me these days,
this's one sick and twisted world, and only your true friends 'll make it through.
i've thought it through and i'v already decided for myself who t trust, who t keep by me, who t play along with and whatever. of cus, im not gna name names.
it's really amazing t see politics being played even at our ages. how i wished this world would'v less of people who are two-faced, hypocritical, and on a gentler note, fucked up inside. get outta my face.
authenticity? kiss my ass. xoxo.
it just leads t people gettin so aware of each other's every actions, paranoid, they dont even know who t trust anymore. feelin' me?
funny, how we sit back and satire at others, yet afraid of what goes around comes around.
such a conundrum, isnt it? well for some reasons, i beg t differ, cus some people just deserve t be satired at.
whatever it is, i'll just carry on with my own life with the group of risible people alongside t brighten my day.

can't wait for the BLING! magazine t be published!
js's bbq tmr, cool.
match with some jc on sat, niceeeeeee.
sat, sat..
laters.

you know, i used t have a lil' concept of where i stand. but this concept flew right outta my hands and now, i dont even really know who i am t you, not anymore.

9:08 AM

Monday, March 12, 2007

extra lessons during the hols just kills me.
studyin's good for me -.-

watched sweet 16 on mtv today before goin t trng.
this girl's dad got her a jaguar for her sixteenth birthday! but today's episode wasnt as nice cus the girl wasnt rich-rich, tsk
all'a the sweet 16 kids getta have cars for their bdays, ranging from benz t bmw t jaguars and a whole lot more, not takin into account the large sum of money like a million already being spent on their extravagant parties. this world's so unfair zz.
soooo since i cant get one now, im gna work for one for myself!
here!
this ought'a spur me on since im so fcuking lazy -.-

a lamborghini.
bottomline, be nice t me now! in the future if i get one maybe we'll go out in this together!
hahahaha we'll seeeeeeeee..
that leaves me wondering what'll i be workin' as in the near future t b able t earn big bucks.
hmm..

5:35 AM

Sunday, March 11, 2007

went out with cool people yday. for more see denise's blog

and my weakness says that i care too much.
fuck

7:25 AM

Friday, March 09, 2007

sooooo we won yday, gold, immediately off t pizza hut after prize presentation and all.
somethin t be happy about cus we havnt done so in a long time.
shant brag about it though cus our zone isnt that strong afterall.. zz
well it also means that nationals's nearing!
omfg and we got kinda tough grouping t start with for the 1st round.
nanchiau, yuying, unity.
damn we really gotta fight, much harder than we did for our finals.
crabs are heavenly :D
random
laters.

5:24 AM

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

julian talked t me before trng yday,
and i wna thank him cus he taught me some things and it really helped :)
ponned sch today, cus i was too sleepy and there was founder's celebration day today from 2-4
anyway, the guys fought really hard during the match with cch. almost overtook them until colin got sub'd in again -.-
hopefully we'll be able t fight like em' tmr.
tmr's our finals with cch. the other time we played em', we only won by some pathetic 2pts. but tmr, it'll be a totally diff story. cant afford t be nervous and lazy tmr -.-
confidenceeeeee. hopefully i'll be able t put in all'a my underbaskets, that's what worries me the most now. plus! more screen and rolls! alright, lucks t the team.
i'v thought it through i guess. and now, i dont really care if the coach or some people brings me down, cus.. you'll see.
it's when you're at your most desperate, that your true friends really appear before you.
tmr's game, for ya'll.
i'm ready.

8:35 PM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

if i could turn back time,
i'll go wherever you will go.
if i could make you mine,
i'll go wherever you will go.
i wish someone out there will bring me backt you,
maybe i'll make it back some day.

tmr's semi-finals against sac,
i shan't falter.

9:06 AM