lost today's game. and i dont wna talk about it again. mixed emotions, so much so that i feel nothing. numb? more of disappointed, frustrated and brain full of question marks. i feel that there's no trust, no nothing, not abit. even some of the players feel the same way as i do. i guess training your ass off doesnt really help. whatever. im short, plus useless? no idea. lack of confidence? im tryin t change. well maybe it just isnt enough for people t see it clearly. the world just doesnt appreciate anything, everything. and refs, you guys just suck, so very bad. i really pray that you still have your eyeballs with you. i hate all of this, i really do. it's not like i didnt try, i did. and everythin' i do is just wrong? i seriously feel like givin up at this point. everything's just a masquerade.
